The Aerie

Black cloud night

Ever get into a 'black cloud' mood, as if you were walking around with a big dark cloud all around you? I'm having one of those the last few days.

I hate it when I get like this. Nothing makes me happy, I only laugh at painful things, and I suck all the life and energy out of every thing around me. What really annoys me is when people ask me what I would want, what I'd like. The whole act of having to try to decide what I want seems like a tremendous bother.

My wife and I went to see Triple Espresso this evening (http://www.tripleespresso.com ). I'd been told by everyone how funny it was, how one would laugh until one hurt. It was nothing to me: it could have been a badly-produced high school play for all it meant. I sat there and could hardly smirk at what I was seeing, sucking all the life out of my little corner of the audience.

It'll pass. These moods, which I get about twice a year, always do. But for now I feel like nothing is funny, nothing is nice, everything is a bother, and nothing matters.

I'll go to bed, maybe I'll feel better in the morning.