The Aerie

Remembering

I am beside myself this morning. I am constantly surprised by the
depths of my grief over this event. I cannot understand why I am so
upset by the remembered events of this day last year. I guess I wish I
wasn't. I guess I want to be able to put a handle on it. I can't name
anyone I knew personally who was lost in the tragedy. If I could, I
would focus my pain and grief upon them. Instead I am simply
aggrieved, bawling into my Kleenex at the whole nightmare of that day,
heartbroken at each story of the dead, at the torn threads of love and
association lost to this horrid madness.

Hopefully the pain will bring growth. Hopefully something will be
learned, something will be changed, something will be stronger and
something important improved. Hopefully we'll all be better people for
this. Hopefully we'll learn something that will change the world.

Hopefully they will not have died in vain.

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